I keep going back, and I think it's getting bad bad. Need help

Hey everyone, I’m struggling and I don’t really know where else to talk about this.

I’ve been smoking weed regularly for about 6 months, but the last 3 months it has gotten really bad. When I have it, I smoke 2–4 joints a day… honestly sometimes all day. It feels like a loop — stress or sadness hits and I immediately turn to smoking. Or even just to “celebrate” something. Any excuse, really.

I’ve never seriously tried to quit. I tell myself I will, and I might last a day or two, but then I go right back. The longest I’ve gone is like 4 days, but I didn’t have real commitment. I think I’ve been laughing it off like it’s not a problem… but it is.

Lately weed is messing with my focus badly. I’ve been putting off responsibilities. I missed or messed up some commitments this week and that scared me. I don’t want this habit to control me anymore.

It’s also expensive where I live, since it’s not easy to get. I’ve lied to get money for it — not big lies, but still. I hate that I did that. That’s not who I want to be.

I’m not even sure if I want to fully quit or just have control over it again. But right now I have zero control and it feels like I’m always chasing that next smoke.

If anyone has been in a similar spot:

How do you break out of this cycle?

How do you stay strong when emotions hit?

How do you deal with the guilt and the “I’ll quit tomorrow” mindset?

Any advice or support helps. I feel like I’m slipping and I want to take my life back

Edit: another question is it okay for me still continue smoking recreationally and in a controlled manner? Maybe after a while? How do I enjoy weed like enjoyed it before. It's been a while where it felt like I had fun because now all I do when I'm high is consume content and eat.